Tuesday, October 10, 2006
argh!
i know, i know.
i'm blogging too much again.
but i just need to like, vent my fustrations out here.
i've just read something, something that made me feel really guilty.
but at the same time, i'm furious at that person who made me feel this way.
WHY?
is it my fault again? is it my fault that i'm such a hypocrite who blows hot and cold whenever i feel like it?
my goodness, what the hell do you expect me to do?
pray to god?
ask for directions? ask for advices? ask for forgiveness?
so what?
so what if all this is happening?
yet it is not just me darling, it's almost everybody.
played pranks on you.
YEAH, the hell we did.
but hello, did you remember the time when you and others played prank
s on me?
let me tell you, i didn't like that feeling
one bit.but you claim that karma exist, so i'm just returning you what you gave me.
NO.
i'm not entirely right, and neither are you to blame.
both of us had done things wrongly.
because if i had a choice, i would have treated the whole situation much differently.
yes i know you're sad that we all behaved this way.
and i'm sorry.
i'm here apologizing to you.so i don't want to ask god for forgiveness when i can ask you instead.
we didn't really know how you felt, what you were thinking.
we are not you. we're not psychic.
but here's one thing i can tell you,
i've been through what you haven't.
and you've not seen the worse of it yet.
what?
am i preaching too much?
am i too naggy?
it's no use blogging it out here, i know.
but i admit, i don't have the guts to tell you.
plus, i'm becoming more of an irritating person by the day.
i know i am. because i feel it.
so once again,
i apologize to you, for making you sad and depressed.
for not being there when you needed someone.
for denying your pain, your ignorance.
and for forgetting how you once treated me with such love.
sorry.till later,. ping
2:26 AM
