Friday, August 18, 2006
I'm quite depressed cause i have so much to say, but there's noone that i am able to talk to.
I can't bear to let them suffer.
OHwell, i really don't give a damn lah. If i have to get through all this alone, so be it.
And i flare up easily recently. A simple thing can get me all workedup and fuming mad.
Just like mr lamaQ. He didn't really do anything to me. He only teased me but i was angry.
Really i was. I had enough of people who always tease me.
For goodness sake, i'm not a MONSTER. I'm sorry if i'm fugly. I'm sorry if i'm fat.
I'm sorry if i have a STINKING ATTITUDE.
But it makes the whole lot my business, and not yours.
So mr lamaQ kept saying sorry and telling me to talk to him. Even if it was just a "fuck off."
I didn't utter a single word cause earlier on, i had already told him "don't talk to me, ever again."
I'm a WOMAN of my word.
In the end, he just gave up lah.
But seriously, those who know me better will know i will NEVER stay angry at any person for too long a period. I can't.
I feel weird ignoring the person when he/she actually feels guilty about what he/she did.
So the next day, mr lamaQ started talking and i replied. I joked, my words always sacarstic and it was only till dnt then he realised i was actually talking to him again.
lamaQ: "eh! you're talking to me again!." *grins*
that's so dumb.
So my main point is: i have severe mood swings.
so if i looked gloomly and pissed, don't need to worry! =))
i'm fine. HAHA.
i just need to sort out my feelings a little.
Oral yesterday was OKAY LAH.
It was tough but it wasn't easy also lor.
For my case, i'm not really eloquent when it comes to this sort of things so i stumbled a little.
and i kept repeating my bloody points!
They asked me where was my favorite eating place.
ME: " Oh, i don't really have a favorite eating place cause i eat almost anything! *grins* erm, but my favorite food is Spaghetti and i always go to Jack's place to eat it. Oh, i always frequent the one at parkway parade! And and and, erm, it's cheap and it's nice. And the service there is GOOD. Not like other shops, er, not that good."
Yes, it sucekd, i know. Cause i really didn't know what to say.
It was so STRESSING and this supposedly 'motherly' examiner didn't even want to smile at me even when i kept smiling at her.
Her loss. So i smiled at the other lady, who was such a chiobu and she smiled back.
HAH.
Serve you right for not smiling back.
I didn't even want to look at you for the whole session.
Second qns was would you like to work for yourself or others.
ME: "erm, i rather work for others cause i'm not really a risk-taker and working for yourself takes a lot of courage and brains. And i don't really think i have that. So i rather work for myself. Working for others, you can make a lot more friends and you also won't be as stressed out. Being a boss, the losses all you have to bear yourself and you must be clever lah. Moreover, if you get on good terms with your boss, then maybe you can become partners later, and that would be working for yourself too what."
then the chiobu replied, " that's the most safe way isn't it?"
and i was like, "hahaha. yah yah." *smiles*
damn.i sounded so hamchi. Same goes for the where would you like to bring your friend to for lunch?
of course i said hawker centre lah. I'm still a student and i have no money.
HAMCHI PIA.
yes, i'm the new HAMCHI PIA.
but JH was so much worst. The examiners asked him about the service in singapore and he answered,"self-service."
hahah.
Today's topic was damn easy lor i tell you.
It was about friends. FRIENDS.
SO EASY.
QNS: tell me about one or two of your friends and why you like them.
JI said she said me lah. DUH. hhaha. She better!
no lah. JK.
But yah, so easy.
But wait, maybe i won't find it easy. Cause i always feel pressured when i meet with the friendship topic. I'm always stumped and have to think for a long time before i can come up with a fake, but logical answer.
I'm just dumb lah.
BOO.
and now that he's bloodily attached, i'm freaking bored.
2 people checking for me!
=))
ohohoh, i wonder who is aravind's favorite friend.
EEEEW, later is MUTHU.
i laugh.
=)
kinda bored, ji meeting JJ at PP. then char going home.
My make-up skills is wearing off lor. HOWHOWHOW!?!?!
really going off,
BBYE PEOPLE.
p.s: HUNNY *inpoohbearstyle
oh wait, i'm called paige now. or rather, paige-ie.
OR, paige-jer. (pager)
till then,
. ping
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