Saturday, June 24, 2006
Just went to my 'cousin's' 21st birthday celebration. The chalet was big and so cosy, omg, if it was someone i was close with ar, her chalet will DIE, cause i will create havoc. Yah but unluckily, it was someone i was close with so.....bah.
I was pretty proud of what i was wearing tonight so just thought i'd let you guys see what i wore.
DISCLAMIER: you might not like what i wear, but i like it so shutdaFup if you don't like it.
*hopshops*
NICE NICE?
It doesn't look punky from the pictures lah but trust me, it looked so PUNKY that everybody got a scare when they saw me.
AHEM, they were not scared because of my FACE ar. They were shocked because they've not seen me in around 2 years and i've totally become a different person. CAN TELL RIGHT? Last time i was this bubbly, innocent little girl who dresses in pink and bright colours and sports kawaii hairstyles and is totally make-up free, now i'm this heavy eyeliner, black eyeshadow, wears black from top to toe, black fingernails, many chunky accessories and standard hairstyle-hair cover eye. So would you be shocked when you see this girl draped in black from head to toe coming to say hi to you? I will lor, looking back on my previous style.
But i'm happy with the style i'm carrying now, no regrets whatsoever. People may say i 'act emo' and blah, but to hell with them lah.
In the first place, they're not emo themselves so how do they judge me about how 'emo' i am? I like black, not because i'm trying to be emo, for god's sake, get a life lah. If just by wearing black means i'm emo, then won't all indians be emo people?
Shit, why did i mention indians again?
So yah, if you want to say anything about me and me trying to act emo, you can just shutup lah. Unless you know me, don't judge me cause it takes a bitch to know another.
On my way home, i was thinking about many stuffs and suddenly my primary school memories came flying back into my head.
I don't exactly hate my primary school life, i just don't like it as much as other people do.
Imagine yourself getting into quarrels with your friends, being betrayed and accused every single year. Will you like that huh?
Not that i'm the good girl in the whole thing, but i wasn't the one who always initiate the fight.
I remember during my primary4 year, i had this grp of friends, yiling, romei, abigail, rebecca and some other idiots i can't remember. We had fun lah, but somehow i felt that we were all 'acting', hiding things from each other. I have nothing against them just this one particular incident that i cannot forget.
There was this time where yiling romei and me went down to the canteen. It was lesson time and i didn't want to skip class. They were the ones who kept telling me, "okay one lah." i trusted them so i went along. But when we returned to class, the teacher saw us and called us to the front of the class. I nearly peed my pants. The teacher scolded us and asked us why we didn't come for his lesson. I expected them to be with me, not to take the blame but at least share the blame together as friends. But NO, they told the teacher i was the one who forced them to not go to lesson.
Bloody shocked i was lah. Then i turned to yiling, whom i thought was my most loyal friend and she agreed with romei that i was the one. In the end? I got the whole blame.
I will always remember that.
In my primary 5 years?
HAH. Even worse, i got bullied by people and i couldn't leave them cause i had no other friends. Thinking back i'm really ashamed of myself lah. I should have just left them and survived on my own, instead of being a fucking copybug [gen pi chong].
Many things happened in my primary5 year lah so i won't say much about it. Just know that i was bullied, betrayed and treated like shit. Luckily that bitch is gone and all her friends have left her. RETRIBUTION ROCKS.
Oh but my first love was in primary5 too lah. HAHA. Cannot forget also, keep dreaming about him even until now. That's why i say he's my first love lah.
Primary 6 ar, a bit messy.
I entered a new class and in the beginning, everybody welcomed me until something happened, which even now, i do not know, split me from everybody else. I had no friends until i met Victoria. We weren't exactly friends lah, we quarrel all the time, she was unreasonable, i was unreasonably but we always patched up because we had no other friends. Then she had this indian friend, Merin. I hated her at first. I don't know why also but we just hated each other. But slowly we accepted each other lah.
But there was this time when i organized a chalet. At that point of time, i was still friends with Victoria and Merin so i invited them. But after my PSLE, i met jessica, veralyn and huiying they all. They were much popular and being desperate, i ditched victoria and merin for them.
I very bad right? I know.
So when jessica they all knew that i had a chalet, they wanted to come too. They even wanted me to un-invite victoria they all just because jessica don't like them. I didn't want to but i didn't want to lose jessica they all as friends so i went along.
ME: eh, erm, you two still coming along to my chalet not ar? *sianed look*
VIC: huh. anything lor.
ME: *hesitate* erm, if hor, you two coming tell me now can anot? i need prepare goodie bag. *shift feet*
VIC: *looks up* huh. i duno.
ME: hurry up la. i need prepare. busy de leh. *act impatient*
VIC: *a look of understanding flashed across her face* okay lor..... *looks sad and walk away*
The above is no fiction, it's really what happened that day.
I'm sad. I have no idea i was such a person.
i need to go lah.
stupid. kena bugged right now.
eh TS, mine are so much BIGGER THAN YOURS.
but yours is swollen so yours dropping to ground. too much gravity.
mine superior, can handle the gravity.
HAHAHAHA.
iAMbuttercup.
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